Entry tags:

books, kisses or death?, the world's smallest violin

1. It is cold. And rainy-wet. And cold, did I mention the cold? Because it's cold. Yesterday they were calling for a 70% chance of snow on Monday, but it's changed to rain and snow, and only a 60% chance. I am glad. ._.

2. I went to the library. This was a terrible idea considering how many works by dead white guys I have finish over the weekend and also because it is cold. This is what I got, although to be fair I've had Leviathan since my last visit. zachariah read it and said it was good. I am about 25 pages in.



I'm well into Blankets, although I missed the Christianity aspect when I read the reviews going around. It changes my perspective a little bit. We'll see!

3. WARNING! EXTREME WHINE AHEAD! I'm feeling weird about a friendship and that friendship being OVER, and yes the capital letters are required. Not "over" in the "I hate you DIAF" kind of a way, but an over in the "I'll just be over here!" kind of way and while I'm not watching there's a brick wall being hastily constructed. I don't know what to do. It's become more like a business partnership, and at what point should I take the fact that I'm being kept at arm's length, or perhaps a football field's length from a friend's personal life personally? I mean, can I get offended about that without being a douchebag? I am a pretty private person myself, but a friendship such as the one I am describing (for my part, anyway) requires some give and take, not me feeling a) ignored at the worst of times, b) like I am constantly talking about myself to fill the NEVERENDING VOID OF AWKWARD SILENCE if we're not discussing fandom, i.e. constant give or constant take, I can't decide which it is, c) as if, by moving to better myself I have inadvertently given up the limited connection that is now strained and I am being replaced: by people with more time, with more agency, with more intelligence and with fewer issues, and d) that my issues are insurmountable and I'm being written off as not worth the time.

Being an adult is balls.

4. Final Fantasy Kiss Battle has arrived! We're switching things around a little so all prompts are equal, so from now until the 12th, feel free to drop by and leave prompts. Sev and I will connect them with references to their home comment and post the master list on 2/14 and the fanwork can commence! I have already placed my bets on the winner. XD

5. I am going to curl up under a warm quilt and read irresponsible things before I have to go make coffee for five hours. I believe there's a hazelnut mocha with extra syrup in my future, because seriously, it is cold. Maybe that will make up for having to go out in it.