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Entry tags:fanfic: final fantasy vii

I really can't believe I wrote this?

The Value of Sunscreen (2,000 words)
Barret, Cloud (/?), PG/worksafe
Barret angsts in Costa Del Sol. Cloud returns. Also, use #45 for mako eyes—seduction. Also on AO3.

Barret later thought it must have started on the road to Kalm, the long trek across fields and fields of grass, battle after battle, how Cloud would look cutting through monster after monster, a little bit lost. It continued as they fought to save the planet, discovered things, lost things, lost people, almost their world. After it was all over he thought it was a damn shame that there wasn't anything he could do about it now, because Cloud was nothing if not insane and he had Marlene to think about and what the hell did he need with the spiky-headed kid, anyway?

They all went their own way, but it wasn't broken like the pieces of the upper plate, just different. Well, Barret didn't do long goodbyes, so half the people he had fought alongside and saved countless times were gone before he even got to give them his best angry face, the goddamn ungrateful brats, and Yuffie had made off with some of his gear. He didn't know what happened to the stupid robot and there was red fur he kept getting on his clothes for weeks afterwards—not even Tifa's lint brushes could help. Vincent was gone like smoke and Cloud wandered out one afternoon and didn't come back, and it pissed him the hell off how Marlene kept asking him when's Cloud coming back, Papa? and damn if Barret wasn't going to hammer that runt in the head when he got back from wherever he had gotten to for making his girl cry like that. Cid hung around long enough to drag him and Tifa to Costa Del Sol, the only three still left, and Barret thought it was a good enough excuse to give Marlene a break, too.

It was hot there, blistering sun baking down on all the people who lived and vacationed and thought lying on the sand to roast was a good idea. He had never pegged Cid as a man to like vacationing, but he pulled off the straw hat well, even though Barret imagined it was because he spent the majority of the vacation plastered out of his damn mind, making lewd suggestions to Tifa and not even realizing Marlene had plopped it on his fool head. Marlene would giggle and if Barret didn't have such a piss poor vocabulary to begin with, he might have said something, but as it was he just let it slide, too tired to really care he was letting the foul-mouth pilot ruin his daughter's mind, as if the whole situation hadn't done so already.

They were three days in to the vacation none of them has given a time limit when Cloud showed back up. It was five in the afternoon and Barret was sitting at one of the bars off the beach where he could just see Tifa and Marlene splashing in the water, figuring he deserved one night to get slap-ass drunk for being put out and saving the world. He was an eco-terrorist, goddamnit, and he still couldn't quite figure out how in the hell he had ended up here, savior of the fucking world when everything still felt wrong.

Cloud just sat down beside him as if he belonged there and ordered a drink. Barret gave him the eye. He was already pretty buzzed and didn't want to ruin it by getting mad and breaking a chair in public. It could wait.

"So, where the hell have you been?"

Cloud shrugged. "Had things I needed to do."

Barret snorted. "Like screw off god knows where with no word to a goddamn soul?"

"Did you worry?" And damn if Cloud didn't make eyes at him, and wasn't that half the problem right there. Barret turned back to his drink with a grunt and decided it was either his imagination that had Cloud flirting with him ever since the kid had figured himself out (mostly, Tifa had confided to Barret later, he's mostly got himself figured out and Barret had raved, how the fuck is he gonna know when he's figured out? He's one crazy fucker, you're gonna trust him!?) or else he was insane and it showed just how stressed out Barret was that he couldn't tell which it was.

"Marlene missed you, asshole," was the best reply he could come up with now that his head was reeling again with the possibility that a half-insane mako monster was flirting with him. He had thought after the gun-arm life couldn't get anymore surreal. He had been wrong.

"What the hell could be more important than the people who saved your skinny ass a hundred damn times?" Barret demanded, feeling put-out and other feelings that had big words to go along with them that he couldn't possibly think of while half-drunk and feeling like he was being undressed with mako eyes as Cloud watched him calmly.

"I needed some time," Cloud said carefully, looking away and sipping his drink, which was almost as girly as his outfit.

"We—you little bastard, Tifa and Marlene were worried! Don't know why they'd put up the effort to worry about your sorry ass, myself, but damn! Could've said something," Barret huffed and he never huffed, huffing was for Vincent when Yuffie put her hands where they weren't supposed to go, and Barret had told her and told her not to try and steal from the man with the crazy ass claw.

"So you were worried," Cloud sounded different somehow. "Drowning your sorrows in beer?"

Barret waved his gun-arm around, and barely registered the fact that the bartender was looking extra nervous. "Hell no! I'm on vacation. What you doing here, anyway? Shouldn't you still be off finding yourself or whatever it was that you were doing?"

Cloud just shook his head and stood, and it made Barret want to give him a solid knock to the face and maybe something else that he damn well wasn't going to think about. He didn't do hugging with anyone but his girl and maybe Tifa, because she was Tifa.

"Where the hell you going?" he demanded as Cloud walked away. "You better not be running off again," he warned, and he was almost proud he managed to sound pissed and totally not concerned all at the same time, and would never admit he maybe felt a little panic that Cloud would just up and disappear again, with no by-your-leave.

"Actually, I was going to go to the beach," he said, turning around and holding up a straw hat that looked a lot like Cid's. Barret finally noticed that Cloud was wearing the most god-awful ugly neon orange swimming shorts and an equally bad green Costa Del Sol shirt from the shop down the street. Barret wasn't sure how he had missed it, considering the kid was blinding him now.

"You not leaving?" Barret asked. "Sure about that?"

Cloud didn't do smiles, Barret knew that much, so what he got was a not-smile but amused eyes. "I'm done with what I needed to do," he said. "You don't care if I stay, do you?"

"Why would I care?!" Barret demanded. "Just no more runnin' off on some crazy journey to find your inner self without lettin' us know! You get to go to Marlene's tea parties for a month, you little ass."

"Good," Cloud said. "I guess I can room with you while we're here, right?" He nodded, as if Barret had given him the okay already and left the bar. Barret floundered for a second before heading after him, leaving his drink on the bar.

"Cloud, wait just a damn minute! Who the hell said that was an option!? You're a cover hog!" He didn't even feel a little embarrassed screaming that fact out for all the people lounging around to hear, even though some old stuffy hags look horrified as he stormed by, following the path Cloud had taken. He was fast when he wanted to be, faster yet when he was making a decision he knew Barret would disagree with. He was crazy as anything, but the kid was crafty. That's a word Yuffie had used: crafty. Barret would be damned if he didn't think the blonde punk had gotten some of it from Yuffie herself, just to spite all of them for when she couldn't be around.

He didn't catch up to Cloud until he was already on the beach, twirling a soggy Marlene up in his arms. It was maybe the sixth item on the mental list Barret had been keeping since meeting the kid that had him catching himself before railing at the kid, because he couldn't very well scream at Cloud while he was being caring. Tifa would have his hide and he wouldn't upset Marlene for anything.

"Papa! Look, Cloud is back!" Marlene said happily, looking like a little crab, already pinking from the sun and lack of proper sunscreen. Tifa was laughing beside Cid who was passed out cold on the lounge chair he had bee sitting in, eyes bright with tears he knew she wouldn't cry. Out of all of them, she had been the one who had pardoned Cloud's being gone like he didn't give a shit about anything, so Barret knew it would be up to him to teach the little bastard a lesson about family later, because obviously no one else was gonna do it the right way.

It gave him pause, and nothing ever gave him pause, pauses were for Mr. Furry when he was about to talk with his important voice as he watched Cloud smearing sunscreen over Marlene's nose and doing his laughing-but-not-really-laughing thing at Cid's snores. Barret didn't know when the hell it had started, this family thing, but he didn't know if he liked the idea of Cloud being all up in it, mattering to Marlene so she'd be all hurt and shit when he took off on a jaunt to discover his inner child or whatever the next excuse would be. He glared hard at Cloud for a minute but it was taking longer and longer to get the angry look to work on anyone around him anymore. He was losing his touch.

"If you're gonna drown her in it, you might as well wear some yourself," Barret grouched as he sat on a chair beside Tifa. She just smiled at him, looking happier, even though she hadn't really been looking all that unhappy the last few days. He frowned at her and she smiled wider.

Cloud was already sandy and covered in the white goo as Marlene popped up and went running back toward the water, calling Cloud's name. Barret hadn't seen Cloud relax even once, so this person in front of him was strange, all pale skin and funky hair and fucking ugly clothes. He just stared and hell no, he wasn't shocked that the wacko knew how to relax. Cloud stood and shook the sand off and held the bottle of sunscreen out to him.

"You should wear some, too," Cloud said, and looked big-eyed and way too innocent for what came out of his mouth next. "Want me to help you put it on?"

Barret just sputtered at him, all the angry words he had failing him. Cloud shrugged and gave him another not-smile, dropping it on the towel below him as he turned toward the water. Tifa was laughing so hard she was practically falling off her chair, and he had no come back at all, and it was hot out here, damnit. Tifa recovered as they watched Cloud and Marlene head into the water, splashing each other. She nudged Barret's leg with her foot.

"What?" he asked gruffly. "Kid's a menace, showing back up like he hadn't made everyone worry and lecturing us on how to take care! Little ass."

"It's sweet you missed each other," Tifa said, grinning and following Cloud and Marlene out, leaving Barret on the beach beside a drunk, passed-out pilot who was mumbling about boobs in his sleep.

"Spiky-headed little punk," Barret said as he watched them, and maybe, he thought to himself, he was sort of glad to see Cloud, after all.


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[identity profile] firefly99.livejournal.com
2006-05-14 07:48 pm UTC (link)
I can't say anything.

After a long period of abstinence from FF7 fanfiction, this is exactly the sort of thing I need to see. You had Barret and Cloud and Cid absolutely FLAWLESS - I was reading this over and whimpering squeeeeBarretsqueeeeBarret out loud. It's just perfect.

This is so getting plugged.

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[identity profile] bottle-of-shine.livejournal.com
2006-05-15 02:23 pm UTC (link)
Well, I'm glad my foray into Final Fantasy VII fic resulted in making someone happy. Whee! Thank you! :D

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Embarassment and SHOCK!
[identity profile] lavenderherring.livejournal.com
2006-05-14 09:41 pm UTC (link)
When I first read this, I thought you were [livejournal.com profile] cupcakemonster. I left you feedback as if you were her. And then I talked to her and was like, "OH! CRAP!" and had the amend the feedback. To make sense. To the Nay. 9_9;

Uhhhhm. Let's see. Er.
Er.

Now I'm all shy! Uhm. Nice and subtle? The stream of consciousness thing at the beginning was clever.... I would have had him say "foo'" more like Mr. T, but that was part of the anglicization of the series that might have taken away from the tone of the story... yes.

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[identity profile] lavenderherring.livejournal.com
2006-05-14 10:01 pm UTC (link)
Uhm, at first your Barrett reminded me too much of Kim's Gippal, if that makes any sense. I think I mistook you for her because A) I'm blind and B) you two write together a lot (?) so perhaps your styles are blending? Who knows?

I liked all of the little details. Red XIII's hair getting on his stuff, Cid's general licentiousness and souse-ness, Marlene's undying affection for Cloud, Cloud's iffy wandering about like a crazy person and wearing odd outfits. The melancholy description of how all of the party members broke apart (save those that stayed together in the end) along with the bits where he related how they'd interacted... and the gun-arm thing... had me all teary-eyed and nostalgic and thinking I should finish the game off after all. I never got past the first disc of the PC version myself, although I played/saw bits of the rest because a friend of mine who was something more of a dedicated gamer let me use her game saves on her PS...1? 2? I forget.


There were some grammatically fuzzy bits that I think were not so much due to a lack of concentration as they were to the sentence fragments and run-ons inherent in the stream-of-consciousness style that make it difficult to get all of the tenses and cases in agreement. Also, Barrett isn't exactly the most literate person anyhow.... I think you might benefit from making friends with our pretensious peacock of a punctuation mark, the semicolon. Oxford commas are great but there were spots where a semicolon would have helped. I know you're an English student... so, if you ever have a chance, try reading Eats, Shoots and Leaves one night and... you'll look back at some of your sentences and notice that they can be read two ways when switching the order of the nouns and adjectives about and adding some punctuation in will make things easier for the reader. I don't want to sit and do that though because when I do that to certain people, I'm told that they care more about my reaction to the concepts in the work than the technical parts and it hurts their self-esteem and makes them feel like the story doesn't matter, which isn't true, but what can I say.

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[identity profile] bottle-of-shine.livejournal.com
2006-05-14 10:14 pm UTC (link)
This tickles me so much because I'm only familiar with Gippal through Kim's work. I haven't touched that game yet. However, HOORAY for blending styles! *greedily hopes to soak up more talent*

I actually thought WHOLE THING was grammatically fuzzy, I wrote the first 1500 words while half-drunk and I only spell/grammar checked three times (which is a vast difference between my usualy 8,000) just because I was so nervous--I'm kind of wondering if I was so nervous I made stupid mistakes. A possibility! xD So I'm surprising you're not red bolding this whole paragraph going, "What the heck are you thinking?!"

Am I an English student? *feels fake* Well, first I overused commas, switched to semicolons, overused semicolons and now I'm back to abusing commas again. I will one day reach a happy medium, possibly by reading the book! That book has been recommended a few times, I'm on the waiting list at the library, and wasn't that a surprise--people in Arkansas reading grammar books for fun, I was amazed. Apparently I am not the only one and I'm also prejudice against Arkansans, too! Wow.

I'm not too sore about getting told I need to work on stuff--I did the whole "my writing is not my poor bleeding heart" thing back when I left the fandom before? Hard lesson, but I can take harsh reviews, yup. I know, I understand why you felt the need for a disclaimer, some people will fly off the handle, but I'm not one of them. I'll just, you know, cry a little tonight in my bed. xD

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[identity profile] first-seventhe.livejournal.com
2006-05-14 09:42 pm UTC (link)
I LOVE YOU.

You write drabbles like I do. ^^ (AKA: they're not drabbles.)

Your Barret is so perfect it makes me all happy inside.

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[identity profile] bottle-of-shine.livejournal.com
2006-05-15 02:24 pm UTC (link)
(I forget how to write drabbles, I think! xD)

Thank you. :D

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[identity profile] cendrillo.livejournal.com
2006-05-14 10:44 pm UTC (link)
Barret kicks ass.

But your CID.... I have a secret love affair with your Cid. Rly. And I could quite imagine Tifa just giving him that long suffering grin of hers, too.

<3

~Cendri

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[identity profile] bottle-of-shine.livejournal.com
2006-05-15 02:25 pm UTC (link)
Cid actually wasn't supposed to be in this story. xD But he snuck in, and maybe it says something when he can almost steal the show, even unconscious. :D

Thank you!

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[identity profile] alita-b-angel.livejournal.com
2006-05-15 08:49 am UTC (link)
Here by way of [livejournal.com profile] firefly99 and I have to say I spent ages staring at the pairing going WHUT, before bravely attempting the link. I'm quite glad I did. It's lovely to see Cloud surrounded by something that actually resembles a family. Even in AC there is the feeling he was detached from everyone and everything... except his past, but this fic truly gives him a nice new happy bubble to play in. And Barrett O_o

... in Hindsight, the yellow rentboy mesh tassle shirt totally gives him away.

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[identity profile] mneme_forgets.livejournal.com
2006-05-15 06:52 pm UTC (link)
I love the way that Barret thinks of Cloud as "the spikey-headed kid" so dismissively, even after realizing that the journeys with Cloud might have made him feel for Cloud a little. I like how Barret's idea of saying goodbye is his best angry face.

I like the way that Barret compares the breaking up of his friends to the plate in Midgar that crashed. I like how he seems so disgusted with people tanning in Costa Del Sol. I like the way that Barret seems a little envious of Cid's ability to pull off a straw hat. Hee.

I like that Barret is disgruntled with the still screwed up state of the world and the way that he isn't really doing anything about it anymore.

I like the way Barret is so calm about the fact that he would like to break a chair over Cloud's head. I love Barret's aside to Tifa about how Cloud is too screwed up to EVER figure himself out.

I love all of Barret's thoughts about Cloud, mako monsters and mako eyes and the fact that he can't be checking Barret out. Hee. I like that Barret betrays that he was worried about Cloud too even though he corrects himself quickly.

I adore that Barret wants to give Cloud a hug. :) I like the way Cloud can't smile and that he can't dress himself and is wearing awful clothes. I love that punishment is tea parties.

I like the way that Barret is all concerned about his angry look not working anymore. I like that he is starting to think of Cloud as family, but he isn't sure how he feels about that. I like that he's uncertain. Too many people would want to make him have a sudden revelation and fall all over Cloud. It's great that the biggest revelation Barret has is that he might have missed Cloud. That is how it would work in such a sticky situation I'd think. It would take lots of time to develop.

This is a really fun story and I really enjoyed reading it. I am actually not a huge fan of FFVII fiction so I always look forward to the good stuff and this is it. :)

Nitpicking:
"They were three days in to the vacation none of them has given a time limit when Cloud showed back up." I would add "to" after "time limit." Also "in to" should be one word here.

"And damn if Cloud didn’t make eyes at him, and wasn’t that half the problem right there." This needs a question mark.

"Tifa was laughing beside Cid who was passed out cold on the lounge chair he had bee sitting in, eyes bright with tears he knew she wouldn’t cry." "bee" should be "been."

"It gave him pause, and nothing ever gave him pause, pauses were for Mr. Furry when he was about to talk with his important voice as he watched Cloud smearing sunscreen over Marlene’s nose and doing his laughing-but-not-really-laughing thing at Cid’s snores." Okay so I suggest putting a period after "important voice," getting rid of "as" and starting off a new sentence with "He watched Cloud."

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[identity profile] delladella.livejournal.com
2006-08-04 09:17 pm UTC (link)
Hrm, looks like I'm late to the party. Commence!

For one, I really like the little details. They enrich the cast and the milieu you've got going here. Setting the scene is something I think a lot of authors neglect in fanfic, because it's always a given, a fallback: you remember what such and such place looks like, and let's all go with it. Never mind that it does a disservice to anybody who'd like to write original fiction; I do think that's the one big drawback of fanfic, off the top of my head. Reading this, I really got a sense of vibrance and what was going on, even a sense of a bystanders, shoppers, peripheral things you didn't bother delineating. Much was implied and done so effectively.

Snickered up a storm reading this, too. Barret's a funny viewpoint. You treat him with respect, not dumbing him down or wimping him out: OH-NOES-THE-GAY-type stuff. Fairly sure he'd never, ever admit that, even to himself. But then again, I'm sure somebody could hatch a melodramatic premise to suit that just fine; you knew what worked for the mood you wanted, here. Honestly, I get a sense of all the characters and wouldn't've pegged you for somebody not in too deep with this fandom. Barret's constant self-restraint impressed and amused me. Love how Tifa's all laid back.

Cloud's funny, because I'm fairly sure he can be written many, many ways. This is the wavelength on which I appreciate him. You give him contrary touches of aloofness and openness, so he's not veering off into wangstdom or god—shuddering just to think it—little peppy antics that recall my handful of nightmare run-ins with fanon!Zack. I don't consider myself especially well read in any fandom, but things like that stick out and horrify me. You avoid the pitfalls that make me cry, cry, cry. And you have a flourish of your own, a straightforwardness of style I admire, because I'm incapable of it.

No false notes, little lines that jarred. That's an accomplishment, at least when I'm trying to write, though sometimes I think we lack the ability to really see our work, up to a point. This is very good, and I enjoyed reading it.

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